I'm insane again. Enough to think that my body of work will survive.
The Body of Work
Category: IN ENGLISH
Gaining Mastery
Now I cannot quite be Narcissus—drinking brilliance from my own reflection.
Non-Gangster Existence
I dislike crime drama written from the investigator POV. Fuck Sherlock Holmes and those murder mysteries. What I want, needs to be hard boiled. Like something written by Edward Bunker. Protagonists end up in a prison where they become successful authors. I'm a nerd who secretly wants to be in a cell with his books. … Continue reading Non-Gangster Existence
Eugenics
My beloved child to come. Keep that ancient joy, alive in your veins.
The Purity Problem
A man haunted by his lecherous past encounters Mormon missionary girls embodying untouched purity.
Deliberate Practice
I want to learn skills that make me money. I can only learn these skills by actually operating in the real world.
Celestial Sphere of Art
I'm an artist. That's categorically different from, let's say, someone like a technician in music industry or a graphic designer in marketing.
The Existential Pendulum Swings Both Ways
"At 4am I was meditating, listening to the hum of a refrigerator and the muffled voices from outside. I started hearing ambient music all of a sudden and I'm pretty sure it couldn't come from anywhere other than my mind."
Moth
Moths, like butterflies, undergo metamorphosis, symbolizing change, transformation, and personal growth. They remind us that even in darkness, transformation is possible.
You Can Be Anything You Want – But There’s a Catch
The calling goes far beyond ordinary desires. You are not becoming who you want to be. You were that all along. The process is an ongoing unveiling of your Higher Self.
Your Genius Is Right Next to Your Dysfunction
Thank God I can borrow dollars against the BTC I bought over the years. I have ample time to sit in my favorite armchair and read Michel Houellebecq.
Struggle is Good!
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Gold Panning
I don't need to complete all the work. That'd be foolish consistency. An artist needs freedom to experiment and do so with the expectation that most ideas won't fly. By necessity, that involves a liberal use of the proverbial trash bin. A creative process is analogous to gold panning. First, I find a promising riverbed, … Continue reading Gold Panning
Damned and Then Redeemed
Those who experience the lowest lows have the equivalent capacity to rise to the highest highs.
OHH, the ecstasy
As God gives me all the answers I need when I stop eating. The Most High also provides me with otherworldly bliss when I restrain from ejaculating.
Eemu Julius 